Have you ever had a secret crush on anyone?
07.06.2025 15:58
After 3 months, a girl joined my batch. Let’s call her X. She was already a student of this coaching. Then it is revealed that she has already been selected in medical. But for better college she was preparing again. She was topper in her school. She studied from one of the prestigious school. After hearing all this about her, I was impressed. But also all this made me to avoid talking to her.
Today After 15 years, i am in my 30’s. I dated a few girls after her but no girl come closer to her even 50%. My parents are forcing me to marry but i can’t tell them the reason. I just want a closure from her.
Now the coaching has been closed. But i was not able to bear that heartbreak. I did not want to disturb her till the exams. After the exams were over, I contacted her again on facebook so that we can be just friends. But she blocked me and i still don’t know the reason. Maybe she didn’t recognize my ID. Or may be she just lost the attraction for me because i am below her league. Or may be just because i am a muslim and she is a hindu. I don’t know the reason still.
I passed my 12th grade from a govt. boys school. So my interaction with girls was almost zero. After passing my 12th, I decided to go for NEET preparation. So, I joined Narayana coaching for preparation. I am not that good in academics, so i joined early to get more time for preparation.
For the next few months she continued flirting with me in different ways. Like laughing at my stupid jokes, passing comments behind my back so that i can hear it and do something. If any boy in class talked to her, she would avoid him so that i don’t feel jealous. She comes to my center for test even if she can give her test at center near to her house. In the middle of the class she kept looking back at me.
I thought i was misunderstanding something. Why would a rich and topper girl have a crush on me? So I just sent her friend request again. She did not accept my request again but she continue to flirt. At one point i thought i was misinterpreting her signs. And I don’t want to be labelled as creep or harasser. After few days i noticed that every time she tries to come closer to me or talk to me, her friends interfere between us. All this continues and then comes february. It was propose day. As soon as she entered the class she made eye contact with me. That eye contact was pretty long more than 10 seconds without blinking. I cannot move my eyes from her. That day i realised that all this was for me. And I fall in love with her.
Did you know that we white women prefer Black boyfriends?
Yes, I have a crush on a girl during my neet preparation days. Before starting my story i want to tell you please don’t judge me. I am writing my heart out here.
In the last month I thought that coaching will be closed so that is why I want to stay in touch with everyone. So i sent friend request to all my classmates including X. When i checked after few days, everyone had accepted my friend request except her. I thought that maybe she might be feeling awkward because we don’t talk. That’s why I cancelled the friend request because I didn’t want any scene to be created during exam time. Next day she comes to me and asks me to sit on the seat next to me. I thought she is making fun of me because i sent her friend request and then cancelled it.
At last, Please don’t judge me. I have just written my heart here.
I don’t know how to respond or react. I tried to send her a message that I like her through one of her friend. But next day her friend told me that she is not interested me, she already had a boyfriend and she will complain to the teacher. This breaks my heart. Now I know that the friend actually didn’t sent the message and just tried to create misunderstanding between us due to jealousy.